For the first time in years, last month, I hesitated when my blog hosting plan came up for renewal. How long will I continue with this? Am I really going to pass the time this way, in a satisfying way, for both myself and readers, long term and potentially new? I’m not really into rambling, mind dump paragraphs, examining ideas and getting things out there just cause. I like to write but I don’t NEED to write like some people do.
I was forced to take a blog break with Tyler’s song-a-day challenge last year. It was just too much to fit into one day. With us recording a video everyday, there wasn’t much left in the tank after working, parenting, video of the day. If there was, I’d get the dishes done before bed. I was writing but a bit too halfheartedly, and I was pouring my ideas and energy into videos. I was more than happy to close my computer at the end of the day without adding anything more in my own space here.
Maybe I don’t feel the same need to photograph and share details as much as I used to. I’m getting more wary of splashing photos of my sweet kid all over the Internet without him having a say in the matter. So am I too cautious of oversharing to keep writing? I’m not sure. Maybe I’m just out of the habit, or need to find a better balance.
I think I’ve come to the conclusion that for now, I’ll try to keep writing about the things I feel passionate about. Even if that means the day to day slips by, I still want to travel and chase sunsets, cook great food and drink wine, think about life and how best to enjoy it. My little J will naturally be a part if it, but maybe less of a real focus. I’m not sure.
I’m still having fun making great food, enjoying little moments. We’re heading on a big, exciting trip to California in a week, so that’ll kickstart my writing and photo taking mojo, I think. And I’ll just go from there.
That’s where I’m at right now, anyways. How about you?